8:45 AM

Still have no cereal so resorted to eating fat laden waffles covered in peanut butter and syrup.

Tomorrow I will do everything perfect (like eat low-fat cereal and work on my writing) because the first day of the New Year is a reflection of your upcoming year, right? You’re supposed to have money in your pocket and dress up and start on your novel, etc. Hopefully today isn’t the day that reflects your upcoming year…

Just want to return to my dream that I got woken up too early from. I think that after the rush of Christmas I shut down. Everything feels difficult, even simple things like putting in the laundry, as though all the extra work on top of regular work of the Christmas Season has burnt me out and it’s a push to just get out of pajamas in the morning. Wonder if anyone else feels this way. Not those who have a job (outside the home) I assume.

Must carry on.

If only I had something to look forward to this evening, that would help. Daughter still sleeping. Blogging has become an instant obsession despite attempts to keep it in moderation. This is a good time to add more New Year’s Resolutions to the list:

-Not be obsessed with blogging

-Find a part time job

-schedule my time to be more productive in my writing (non-blog writing)

7:38 AM

New Year’s Eve Day dawns (actually it’s still dark out)

Thinking of throwing in the towel with this blogging thing. It’s totally fun but quite possibly a total waste of time, especially the sharing of inner thoughts honestly and openly. That is where I differ from the rest of the people I know, who are mysteries, and so I assume my openness is my weakness that keeps me from being a Most Sought After Friend to anyone.

New Year’s Resolutions:

-Not be open and honest

-Not feel the need to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth ALL THE TIME

-Become like Sarah from the TV show Chuck

-Talk less

-Fulfill my writing goals

-Become a New York Times Bestselling Author

-Let go of MSA Friend

-Find out what is missing in my life

-Save money for LA Screenwriting conference

And I’m sure there will be more resolutions as the day unfolds. I’m going to add one more:

-Make the most New Year’s Resolutions I’ve ever made for one year.

 Cat in front of Computer monitor so can’t type anymore.

I’m back. Blasted cat stepped on sleep button and shut down my comp. Dreams of the night still fresh in my mind, throwing off sense of reality, will forget them and go into Stroller Syndrome mode soon enough. Husband is getting ready to leave. Wonder if Daughter will want to do something other than the Family Festival today, something posh and involving bubbling champaine (like the non-alcoholic kind). Probably not. Probably end up at Family Fest, pushing proverbial stroller. 

one more NY resolution:

-don’t edit blog posts, just hit publish